So excited for tmr!! Heading to Universal studios with Rach yvz audz andrew and the crazy monster-ger. Pls pls pls i hope the weather will be super awesome tmrz!!

I typed a long nice picture post at work today, bout vintage fashion but...it disappeared which explains the lack of updates. Whats new right, technology always fail me. On a bright side of life, i just got my first uni acceptance!! Just got my mail from SMU!

I'm off to bed for now goodnight world tmr gna be a good day. + side note i cant wait to wear the new clothes @myfishbone and i bought tgt during shopping trip!

Sometimes im surprise how i cope with all the drama happening. A few weeks ago i was hoping i wont hav t go thru all these again, yet on thursday all the drama began. If theres one thing in life i can never understand, i guess its how sis can put herself thru all this shit and her reason behind this.

I use to get so uptight and freaked out whenver she does something silly, but no more now. I no longer get scared to the extent i cry, i no longer panic and freak out and look for someone to cry to.. Was talking to xinyi and gaoxin bout all the drama thats been happening when it struck me that they're kinda right, i guess all these experience taught me a lot and i grew up alot. No longer the girl who goes crying to someone, i think i learnt to be more independent and i was surprise how i got thru the past few days handling everything myself.

Been sucha crazy 4 days i don't even knw where i should begin with. Started with sis creating a scene in sch, emergency to KK hosp... and when i found out bout this all i was abt to go for Smu interview. So glad i didnt let emotions take over me or i wld hv screwed up the interivew. Next thing i knew at night was that mum's admitted to Mt Eliz too. Srsly, how often do you face such shit situations where both mum and sis are in diff hospitals?! I was all heartbroken frustrated and worried and i cant desc how much i hate that feeling. Nxt two days was struggling betwn both hosps and answering to all the phonecalls from KK ward as well as the police. Was driving me mad but then again mum was hospitalized and dad was so agitated..... I hav t be the one handling all the random admin phonecalls etc dont i??

Right now sis is resting in imh, its tragic i'd say but i guess for the long run this is still the best solution. We've been running and escaping running and escaping for such a long time giving in to her threats, its time she seek proper treatment and stop running. It breaks my heart how i knw she hate it there, she feels crazy there but i believe this is still the best option we hav rather than bring her home and hav another 10repeats of similar episdoes........right?

I dontknw if this decision is gna worsen everything,... we're gambling again. This time gambling her happiness and future i'd say.

On a lighter note, i won't hav been able to get thru the weekend w/o the girls. Barrage for picnic, girltalks etc was def what i needed, kinda a get away from reality... i was just so glad t see em again though manda if youre reading this i still missz you. We took hundred of pretty pictures..... they'll be up here when im happier or maybe later when work bores me too much.

So, i've left my site alone again for such a long time and finally updating this after such a long while.

Highlight from the past few weeks def got to be Alvl results, i'm surprise i hvn't blogged a word bout it since three weeks ago. I won't say i did fantastic cuz i didn't but i guess it's good enough for me to be contented though lit and gp disappointed me. Drama was the most unexpected but what that was most happy w too, so glad all the mad staying up at night was worthwhile. Applying for pyschology and.......hopefully it'll rly get me somewhere. I hav always been clueless bout life what i want to do in the future but this time i kinda got it figured clinical pysch is prolly smth i wna commit my time to so....all i can say is i pray and hope.

Life hav been complicated and i hate the way i share awkward relationships with ppl closest to me and whom, i love.  I'm not good at solving problems, never hav been. So even if i try to change, the way i handle will prolly not be the best. Guess you will never understand how i feel rn.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

Exactly how i feel. Life is so much of a rollercoaster, you get your peaks, and you fall to your deepest too and thats when it hurts the most. Its funny how i resort to sticking postit around telling myself, It's all gna be okay or like Stop crying over what's not worth. I guess i know life goes on, but then words and actions are two seperate issues.

I need time. Afterall i need to get used to empty anticipations, disappointments etc.

For all thats been there for me the past few days, i luv you guys the most thanks for everything.

Last night was such a crazy nightmare, dear god i dont wna a repeat of such situation in my entire life. Slept over at the hospital to keep sis company... #hatethatfeeling. Dear pearlyn plzzzz get well soon and be a strong girl cuz all of us love you so much.

Anyhow on a brighter note work has been easy t get thru cuz i hav such awesome friendssss who makes me feel super loved. Today Jem visited me at work again^^ Managed to kill an hour plus of time cuz i had company to talk to and we were bitching bout bitches. Oh dont think i mentioned this 2 days back i got surprise visits from diff ppl too which ttly made my entire week. On monday Daryl visited me at work! He's my new made friend and i thought it was super sweet and thoughtful of him to drop by and buy me candies and gummybears^^  Afterwhich Vincent and Jem drop by too, made me sucha happy girl even though they still hold the title of being kings of bully yh gang. And best part was after two surprise visits, gaoxin came too and she stayed till i end work t hav dinner w me<3

What wld i do w/o you guys. xx

It's kinda like holidays now so i figured this is the best time for me to start blogging properly all over again.

Life hav been pretty much exciting & interesting lately so i guess i've been quite a happy girl. This month hav been mainly bout Chinese New Year, almost weekly meet up with Peijin, things are better with Howard and I now (I guesssss) so we've been spending much more time tgt since he's back too.Past weekend was the most happening despite working for ten hours on Saturday. After work N came and he drove me for dinner @Jalankayu for prata. My first time there in Sengkang, but it was quite cool, v v farm like-ish there.

And highlight of the evening was Yvonne's birthday surprise♥

Was so painful planning it the day before! Contacted her sis and her bestie it was so complicating to arrange everything and hope that nthng goes wrong. @yvzzz if you see this, i reallyy hope we surprised you that day and that you luv the presents we got for you pluz that you've got a really memorable 19th. Love you so much my fav girlf who survived every single day of Jc school life with me. And when i say every single day i mean every single day. Cldnt hav imagined classes, breaks and esp drama w/o you bb.

Rachel stayed over at my place for the first time and we had fun playing monodeal, girl talks, htht, and the weirdest conversation bout guys. I think when its late at night theres a tendency to blabber nonsense. But then again it was a nice feeling to tell your gf all the tiny weird awkward and even embarassing stuff. Oh, and Gaoxin and i met up on sunday to get Stickys candy + shopping @ bugis which i bought a .... super pretty hot pink bag (;

I know, I'm hopeless when it comes to my fav colour.

I'm bored of wordpress, so hello to onsugar. Shall attempt to blog more reguarly with pictures, afterall, life is short and i need to keep awesome memories close to my heart right?

xx